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The great thing about an anonymous blog is that you can pretty much say whatever the hell you want. It can be a beautiful thing, rather cathartic really. There are times you just have to say something that you really don’t want people to be asking questions about; things that you need to actually communicate in order to even begin to believe they are real; kind of like pinching yourself in a dream.

For me, this is one of those times, as I was informed yesterday that I am about to be divorced. “Divorced” Wow, now there is a serious word… rather grown up really. Reality may be a slow mover, but when she gains momentum the impact can be quite impressive….

I will be the first to admit, I am no picnic to be with. If you have been following along on my little journey here you should have realized that fact by now. I honestly hold no grudge toward her, in a way I am a bit surprised that it has taken this long. I have always had it in the back of my head, nagging away; I am far to “quirky” of a person not to cause friction. I just didn’t think it would be now, not here, not like this. I always imagined fighting to save it, refusing to go quietly…

But here I am; 33 and looking at apartments and lawyers; wondering what is next.

Anyone have a map I can borrow? All I see are errors and omissions when I attempt to plot a course here.